Ninety days sober. It’s a milestone I’ve only reached twice in the past twenty years. The first time was when I arrived in Missoula, driven by the belief that something in my life had to change. Today feels different—quieter, steadier—but no less significant.
One other factor this time is that the N/A scence is so much better than it was even two or three years ago. Almost impossible to go a gas station, grocery store or bar that doesn’t have at least two that I enjoy, No more O’Dooles.
When I moved to Missoula in 2019 I came with the absolute convication that I needed to change that part of my life. I was grossly unhappy and had put on 40+ lbs and was over 200 lbs. From 2016 to 2018 I had worked my ass off got down to 150 from over 200 but gained it all back during the divorce. I took a big change in my life to demarcate a change in how I was living it.
I threw myself back into the gym, hiking and staying sober. That started in July 2019 and I am not entirely sure when I started drinking again. Best guess was it lasted about five months and I didn’t make it through the holidays without alcohol.
I know I talked a bit about this before but 90 days is a huge milestone for me mentally. It is hard to tell people that I ‘don’t drink’ anymore because if I find myself having a glass of wine or something I don’t want it to come across like I’ve fallen off the wagon. On the other hand I am committeed to staying sober. There is something about turning 40 that also made this an easier decision. Mid-life crisis? Who knows.
Some days sobriety is a full-time job but one day at a time and lets get to 120 days.
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Part of my sucss has been journaling every day even if it is a to-do list. I try to write down what I ate, what I did and just basic life stuff. Sometimes it becomes more intimate and reflective but even the act of focusing how I spent my day helps a lot. I keeps me aware of the small things I acomplised and what I need to do.
This is a quite and simple life but it is my own and I am happy with it.